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Is the grass greener… hmmm… Had you asked me that question 4-6 months ago… YEP without a doubt!! I was one of the jealous mom’s that has always worked and would have given my left hand to be able to stay home and care every day for my little girl!!!!!
It’s funny how life works out and it’s funny about how you always think “if this happens or what about that or if only”…
Given, a lot has changed since I thought that way and now I realize, I really NEED MY LEFT HAND!!!!!
Let me take you back a bit if I may… I loved my job about 90% of the time~ I had been doing it for a little over 13 years… I mean, I should really love it, right????
I enjoyed seeing my patients, really getting to know them and was always super excited to see their beautiful smiles at the end of treatment!!!! What better job than to have someone cry and tell you that you “changed their life” I mean…WOW!!!!
I always dreamed about the day I could quit my job and stay home w/my baby! I thought about singing, dancing, cooking (all the things I really am no good at) but I thought that it would all change once I was a mom! Like a pill you take while leaving the hospital…
POOF… “You are now qualified to be the most amazing mom ever and be the envy of all that you encounter, with the most beautiful little daughter in the whole world”
Yep, felt like it for a minute or two, but reallllly, I’m not that crazy!
I remember moving to San Diego 6 years ago…
Jason had never been there but being such a wonderful husband that he was, I convinced him after I had spent an amazing weekend with my 3 sisters, celebrating by sister Ginny's Birthday that this is where we need to be and because it was going to be a new adventure for us! What an adventure it turned out to be!!!!!!
I HATED my 1st job! Seriously, it was wretched! The horrible doctor threw dental instruments when he was mad (which was ALL the time) Jason, thank god worked at a golf course just within walking distance and we would meet for lunch and cry about how crappy our jobs were… The sweetest, most awesome husband that he is, would leave me cards on my car to find… Encouraging me to make it through another day at a place he knew I hated… I love him more than I can express for those cards…
Anyways, I/we NEVER, EVER, EVER thought we would EVER move to California! Jason spent his Freshman year at Whittier College in East L.A. and just HATED IT! So, never in a million, billion years would I ever think that we would end up in California and “LOVE” it for 6 years!
But it just wasn’t the time for us to be in Oregon and I am sooooo happy we followed our hearts and jumped in completely blind to find such an amazing family of friends in San Diego and a truly wonderful adventure :)
5 comments:
Glad to see you blogging my friend. If the grass looks greener is is most likely astroturf:) It is funny because people think staying home is so wonderful and as you can see it has its ups and downs. Wasn't it nice to get a paycheck and get out ALONE once in awhile? I wouldn't give my place up for anything, but it is not all peachy. Mostly peachy...but not all.
Glad you're back to blogging. We miss you! The grass was definitely greener for us when you were here.
Great to see a post from you :) Life is funny isn't it? Our perceptions can be so different from our experiences!
Give your little cutie a hug from us!
Okay...So, I get totally ingrossed in your story and then...it ended...where is the rest?
You doing good? I think the grass is green there, you just havem't had a chance to see it yet:)
Wish you were here to play with us.
Why can't mothers have the best of both worlds? Been thinking about that a lot lately.
Blog away sister!
I am so happy to see you posting again. Yes, the grass always does seem greener, doesn't it? I remember being pregnant with Kingsley (and working full time) and I couldn't wait to quit to be a sahm. But, I echo what Stacia says now too (a paycheck, some alone time---even if its the commute home). I try to focus on the positives and all the lovely green where I can find it. :) But, I am looking forward to hearing your voice and perspective. Love the new header of both you beautiful girls. It sounds like you have a wonderful husband in that Jason. :)
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